13 September 2004

Why is it that the discovery of something so precious and beautiful can rock your world to its foundations? After Mass this morning, I found myself with my head burried in my arms, shaking with the desire to sob and not allowing myself to. I begged to be shown what it is I am to do, grasping the only sure thing I have left, my desire to do only God's will. (and I can't even really call that "mine," for it is only by grace I can even cling to that) No answer came, nothing but a feeling of having once again given myself over, a sense of surrender.

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Freedom - love - trust - friendship
where does one end and the other begin? the lines, if there were any in the first place, are bluring, and they keep merging and melting into each other...

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(and now for something completely different...)
To be sung to a low, jazzy tune:

Denique, meum amatum hic venit
meas tristes dies victas sunt
et vita carmen est.

by the Sprit, after studying Latin vocabulary on two hours of sleep.
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Kitty said...

It would seem that you did receive an answer, because by surrendering yourself to God's will you've given Him charge of your life. And in His time He will give you the knowledge that you need to make the right decisions. But until that time you must rest in the peace that comes with that surrender.
Freedom - love - trust - friendship, there are no lines. To have any of those requires that you have the others as well. Ex. To be a friend to someone requires the other person to trust you, you must offer them unconditional love and you must allow them freedom to make mistakes yet still know that you will be there for them. Change the words around and it's still the same. To have freedom in any relationship requires a certain amount of love, trust and friendship for and from the other person.
Hang in there, you are on the right track. K :)

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